So the 2nd short is on it's way...
Saturday May 19th 3:15 PM
The experience of a project falling through can be a horrid one, especially as deadlines loom. When you realized you've underestimated/overestimated time, or other variables, it is honestly exhausting. For me, after the exhaustion leaves, terror sets in. It's a paralyzing fear that worms it's way into every part of my existence and those close to me can observe a change in my person that is awkward and unpleasant. Thankfully artistic people can be resilient and are able to move past their setbacks (even at the zero hour) sometimes going on to create something even better. I think I have done this...but not without help.
Hollywood writer, Kyle Anderson, was kind enough to take a look at my work and toss me a few ideas. He didn't think it was total crap and that was a comfort. He offered me kind words bolstering my confidence just enough for me to buckle down and get the job done. For this, I will be eternally grateful.
David Grapes, Chair of the University of Northern Colorado Theatre Department, the man who gave me this opportunity, was kind enough to furnish me with two performers less than two weeks before deadline. It's flattering that he thinks enough of me to give me this opportunity let alone help me with the logistics this late. Thank you sir. I hope I deliver.
Come June 1st 2012, I plan on walking into David's office with two DVD's. Three words will escape my lips. Thank you and Done. I'm looking forward to that moment, but only if these films meet my expectations which, in reality, I know they never will. There's always going to be something wrong with them, isn't there? The pacing in one spot, the music, the absence of a single pickup shot...you get the jist. Perhaps, though, that's one of the things I love about this. Perhaps, on some level, I enjoy the tiny failures more than the big successes. They're a piece of what keep me coming back.
Sunday May 20th 8:55 PM
Just got back from an afternoon of shooting. It went well. Much more guerilla than The Proposal, but that's what I'm after. The actors were great and it was a pleasure to talk to each of them. I would definitely work with Scott Kruse, Jason Clark and Alex Johnson again (If they wouldn't mind). They are amazing and kind for acting for me on this. Cards on the table, I don't know if this one will work the way I want it to, but that's the point of taking risks and trying new things. Everybody cross your fingers, this week is going to be tight.